Gwyneth Paltrow opened up about the difficult feelings behind her divorce from Chris Martin during a conversation with Anna Faris.

“I’ve learned so much from something I wanted least in the world. I never wanted to get divorced,” the Goop founder, 48, told the House Bunny star, 44, during an episode of her “Anna Faris Is Unqualified” podcast released Monday, March 22. “I never wanted to not be married to the father of my kids, theoretically.”

Paltrow and the “Yellow” singer, 44, split in 2014. The former couple met in 2002 while Coldplay was on tour in Los Angeles. After a year of dating, they tied the knot in 2003. A year later, they welcomed their daughter, Apple. Their son, Moses, was born in 2006.